I know I made a lot of stupid mistakes in my life, but the biggest one yet was letting myself believe that the guy who hurt me the most, wouldn't do it again.

Ambition as someone can dream so widely
and to ' give birth' to there wishes
and succeed
to accomplish a goal is beautiful,
the feeling when you have succeed into life with a whole new chapter to go.

dylan, your driving me mad

this feeling in my chest.
overwelms my thourghts.
toss and turns.
insomniac.
my head, cannot see why.
why this feeling in my chest.
insomniac.

the poster boys dream, sends his heart out on his sleeve

i want xanax and to fight the sleep
sleep is for the poor
the poor hearted young boy
with out you i cannot sleep

every night the sun clocks over the moon
and i constently cant get over you

i crave you but the nicotene helps me sleep

Fuck you.

My love, my lover, on my own.

Turn around, I can't speak, I can't make a sound.

I had my heart written out in stone,

Giving you my all, but all i got back in return was the grave stone.

I was blinded, your perfection connected my connection, 

Your mishaps in mis-shaped perceptions.

Sliced right down the chest, and torn open, to eat the carcus alive.

Not making any zZ for a couple of nights.

You know I dream, I dream about you.

A wasted million thoughts, all tied up in a bow.

All pretty for the eyes to see but really

Ima' broken mirror, shattered and broken.

But your the splinter, i could not see, just feel.

take a look at me, i love you

your the new beginning of spring,

your the warmth summer,

your the feeling of autum,

your the reason to stay close in winter,

and i don't think i've ever loved you more.

but i'm a lonely person, in a colossal world

a lone wolf, in a flock of birds.

and can only feel the motion of black, when your not around. 

All i can see is perfection and my life flashes right behind my eyes.

Keep your head held up high,

and shake your gold in the air.

There's nothing wrong in speaking a language you don't know

Hearts worn on my sleeve, i try not to shake it.

My dam wreckage  will bring us all down now

is indescribable

So we log on,

cos we are a secret from each other,

just to see his smile and wish it was upon ourselvs.

and they say that were are too young to toil.

but to toil is to feel, and to feel is to love,

and love with your smile upon,

is undescribable

missing.

Maybe one day, you will see

that you have to move on and leave what you thrght was yours behind.

The past is rich but diamonds don't last forever.

They don't care , you were just a chapter .

Find somebody knew, 

Leave it behind, and move on.

Whenever you want it, whenever you need it.

I love you keeps rolling off my tongue,

You keep crawling in my head.

Because your everything i want i never knew i needed,

your everything i need i never knew i wanted.

Cypt

Im loosing grip.

Pycadellics are my only friend. 

I have lost my mind.

And when the smoke cleared, i couldn't find you.

iv lost you,

and i don't know how,

where did we loose feeling?

where did we not read the in between?

and now i'm standing here, not knowing where too look?

not knowing if i know u anymore.

Get well soon, I don't just want memories.

Death sweeps every city streets,

looms behind every corner.

and i'm scared, only for the loss i'm afraid to feel.

My mind runs on $1.90 a ltre petrol,

Not enough income to persure hope.

Slowly i will stutter and crash,

My mind dies on me again.

And theirs a light shining around him,

and you see thats he's only gonna break your heart.

The dim city drinks to another lonely night,

To awaken to another hungover day.

Just Like Anxiety. Prt 2

Today I felt my heart beat disappear and my body collapsed.

Fuck the cocoons and cover my eyes with my shaking hands 

As my tears run through my fingers,

Your clearly still in-love with her.

Just Like Anxiety.

Today I felt my heart beat every part of my body,

I felt the cocoons burst open and my hands started to shake.

My tears ran to the sides of my cheeks.

Im clearly still in-love with you.

Tafe.

Okay, so today I had my first day at tafe. I was doing a hairdressing course whitch costed $700. Anyway, I walked in there ad the teacher was an absolute bitch, and i have never been so intimidated and put down about payment. If someone gives me shit, i'll fight back, i don't take crap from anyone. We didn't even start class and the teacher already discluded me and embarrsed me. In the mean time everyone had to fill in forms, exept for me, and one of the rules were not to put down others, respect others and don't bully people, and what in the first 10 minutes I already felt very uncomptable and in 15 minutes I wanted to quit and by half an hour in the lesson I had tears in my eyes and already sms mum saying i'm dropping out. I never knew I could of been put so out of place, it was horrible. And i really didn't want to pay $700 to a bitch of a teacher.

Britt from tip2toe

My life:

Alright, my life hmmm, you cant sum my life up in one word, all parts of my life are different, I'm not just one girl, but don't worry i won't change personalities on you. I was born in a place called Box Hill Hospital, from then i'm pretty sure I grew up in pool srt, but i wouldn't have a clue where that is. Life was so simple them days, the only problem were whoever got to play with the blonde hair'd barbie. From what i can first start remembering, I lived in vermont, in a 3 bedroom house! It was pretty mad, had a hill in the front with a tree on top, and inside, if you stick your head out the bedroom door, your could see if mum was still awake, so we woulnd't get busted when we snuck out of bed and into the kitchen for food. I was about 5 years old. Growing up I was always the naughty child, whatever I did i was always up to no good. But hey! atleast i knew how to have fun. By the time I was at the end of grade 2 I left beloved Vermont and moved to my current house in Wantirna. 

Schooling:

I used to love school, like madly in love (lol)  and then i hit yr 7, oh em gee, hated yr 7, hated hated hated it! it was the most bitchiest yr ever! Anyhoo, I went to 2 primary schools and 2 high schools:) so you can say i havn't stayed at a school for over 3years, so thats like, 3 years friendships.. nah i still keeep in contact. Right now is my secound day of my new school, Boxhill Senior, mad as school, looks like i fell madly back in love with school:D its so relaxed, free dress and everything, the teachers are chill and we call them by the first names not silly mr. (insert name).  Hmmm, I hit highschool, and my grades just dropped. like from a+ to getting 2% on a math. But this year i have a goal, to get high scores, and mum brought me a new mac to help with that:D it's a promise to myself, so lets hope i complete it.

Friends:

Everyone is fake, everyone will turn agaisnt you in some point (gosh i sound depressed) theres a couple of mates who hasn't lowered themselves to that line, but lets just say they got really close. But recently iv met theese gun as people, so im just preying stuff with go great. 

i'll finish this soon.

love you.