Hey! Thanks for the comment on my blog about my bunnies. They are darling. Pinkle is running about my bedroom right now finding things to claim as his own. He loves my books (the one holdout from his chew training days) so I have to make sure none are close enough for him to grab hold.
"Friends: Everyone is fake, everyone will turn agaisnt you in some point (gosh i sound depressed) theres a couple of mates who hasn't lowered themselves to that line, but lets just say they got really close."
I know it's really hard not to think that way, and I hate to say that alot of people will let you down. But something I have learned is that you have to give chances, but keep your cards close to your chest until you know if you can truly trust someone. You won't find out in a few weeks or even a few months, but sooner or later, you will know. It's a hard lesson to learn when you've let someone in and they hurt you. But if you never trust, you never know who and what you will miss. Not everyone is fake, but there are many out there who are. It's figuring out the difference that's difficult. I'm still working on it, and unfortunetly I've had a crash course over the past year or so. Be careful on the internet especially. I may be real life wise, but I was quite naive when it came to the web. Not anymore.
Ya know, every one of your comments make me smile, so wide. That says something about you, don't ya think?? ;p
I'm glad you like my weird posts. Hardly any of it is my own words, however! And well, clearly I have a hero complex..O.K. just obsession. ;p The first bit was an indian prayer I found. The second bit was from a free zainy little mag that our local junior college students put out (sometimes you can't make out any of the words! How arty! ;p) And the last bit, well, who doesn't love Batman, right? I prefer Michael Keaton honestly, but Bale is pretty cute (save for that whole throaty voice he was pulling in the second flick. What was up with that? Jesus.) And I think Ledger (Oh,I just loved him.) was one of the most amazing villains I have ever seen! Too damn intense. So fuckin sad.
I was going to put up a new post in bit here, it's from a movie I saw when I was about 9 I think? 'Pump Up The Volume.' Came out in '90?(It's an American flick.) Christian Slater is the lead (hero!). You have to try and rent it sometime if you like what I post of it. It's all about young people finding their voices and straight up -USING THEM! Finding and trying to face yourself, the world. I can watch that one again and again and again. There's some nudity, and some really dirty humor (oh boy!), but the real meaning behind it is never to feel you can't stand up for yourself. A most awesome (and needed) message. It's pretty intense actually. And well, he was a damn fine fella back then, ya know! ;p Oh, and since I'm bombarding ya Britt, if you venture to rent that one, you should totally find 'The Legend Of Billie Jean' too. Oddly enough, Christian Slater is in that one too! His sis is the lead (heroine!). Basically the same concept, but a little more action. Well, kinda. ;p Just really wicked movies if you're lookin to find some inspiration for yourself. Let me just say, growing up (and hell, even today) these two movies, were my best friends. Gives you a little push and desire to know who you are, and just embrace that, what you believe in, what you want, all of it. I don't think enough people feel they can do that for themselves.
I have to agree with L and say, it is rough, no matter what age you are. And things are always going to be uncertain. But Britt, so far from our little interactions, you seem to be doing alright cutie. You seem to have a good sense of yourself and that is not only awesome, but the best weapon you can have, when walking out into the world. Even though things didn't seem to go so hot at Tafe, at least you had the courage to try there. And you had even more courage to say "I don't want to be here." It's hard to admit to that feeling sometimes. Almost like you are letting people down, and you feel you aren't capable. And if you truly felt you didn't want to be there, it's better that you said it, straight. But I want you to know too Britt, that I don't think you should let the way other people treat you, take you away from something you want.
I know it is hard just getting through it all day to day in school(I so very much hated it! Still kinda do actually!), and adding to that being surrounded by people you feel don't want you to succeed, well that just sucks That Much More. But sometimes having to stay in a crappy situation -and having to face all the challenges of such uninviting (sometimes just straight up monstrous) people -sometimes it makes fighting through all of that, getting your work done, trying to do well, no matter how it all turns out -sometimes it feels better in the end.
It doesn't matter if it doesn't go the way you wanted it too, it's the fact that you tried, you just tried, to face the ugly in front of you, sometimes no matter what, it just feels better that you gave it a chance. Ya know what I mean? I don't mean to offend you Britt, I just wanted you to know, a lot of us (if not ALL!) have been in your position. Hell, we still feel that way sometimes. And I have little doubt that will won't again. It's part of life, unfortunately. I just don't want you to not fight for something you want because it is safer (even for your heart, loves) not too. I just don't want you to give up on some things. Things that you feel are important, things you want, you need. I just want you to give your effort a chance to really turn out into something wonderful for you. You never know how something will go until you really give it your all.
I do hope the school situation is going better. School unto itself is just a lot of fuckin effort. And some people only like to make it harder for others. (That goes for life outside of school too, unfortunately.) But I know, sooner or later, you will encounter someone close, who only wants the best for you, and will do what they can to help you get that. I hope you know, of the friends you have made here, we do believe in you and only want great things for you Britt.
You know you can always drop a note (email too!) if you ever want to chat. I'm real terrible at getting back to people (especially people I care about!), but I am always thinking of you lot. ;p So feel free, Britt. I hope things are better. Hope to hear from ya soon! Loves, dez/lew <33
P.s. I just LOVE your blog tittle! And you're words are something beautiful too. I always enjoy reading them. ;) Talk with ya Britt<33
I'm so sorry I took so long in getting back to ya loves! I didn't mean to keep you hanging! I am sorry you were having a rough time, last you popped by my blog. I hope that has improved some for ya? I know you were upset about the whole Tafe thing, but really the most important thing is that you be honest with yourself, how you feel. If you truly felt that wasn't the place for you, then you did the very best thing -and said so. And like you said, things are right with your buddies there. It is something so important to have friends that understand you. So important Britt. And even if things do turn sour, with anyone, you have to know that if you are being true to yourself, and if people are meant to accept you, embrace you for who you are and what you want, feel, then -They will.
And too, some people are just shits. And you shouldn't count on them, or take their shitheadiness too much to heart. They are not Everyone, in the world. ;p But I am sure ya know that! I just wanted to say it!
I hope school is going a little better for you. But I have to say loves, I do think it is all just a test of character. High school, I mean. If you can make it through that mess of emotion and betrayal and heartbreak and changes and homework and homework and even more fuckin homework (;p) and everything in your face all at once -still knowing who you are, and forever being true to yourself, (Don't ever be ashamed of who you are Britt), still pulling through the homework, graduating -then you have passed The TEST. ;p
Mind you, that is a hell of feat, that many years test. And I didn't pass it so well myself. But I honestly didn't try so hard. And that doesn't leave you, not trying to do the best you could have. It's made my life rather difficult to be totally honest Britt. I don't want anyone to miss out on the opportunity to test themselves, to gain knowledge that may not seem important now, (but trust me, it will be important eventually) and pass that fucked up rough (and actually worth it) test. Ya know? Especially people I care about and believe will manage just fine, loves. ;p
Drop me a note, when ya can. I really do hope things are going better for ya Britt. I know you deserve better. You hang in there. -And remember, just keep going, make it through. It's worth it, I promise you. ;p Love to ya cutie! <33 des/lew
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Hey! Thanks for the comment on my blog about my bunnies. They are darling. Pinkle is running about my bedroom right now finding things to claim as his own. He loves my books (the one holdout from his chew training days) so I have to make sure none are close enough for him to grab hold.
"Friends:
Everyone is fake, everyone will turn agaisnt you in some point (gosh i sound depressed) theres a couple of mates who hasn't lowered themselves to that line, but lets just say they got really close."
I know it's really hard not to think that way, and I hate to say that alot of people will let you down. But something I have learned is that you have to give chances, but keep your cards close to your chest until you know if you can truly trust someone. You won't find out in a few weeks or even a few months, but sooner or later, you will know. It's a hard lesson to learn when you've let someone in and they hurt you. But if you never trust, you never know who and what you will miss. Not everyone is fake, but there are many out there who are. It's figuring out the difference that's difficult. I'm still working on it, and unfortunetly I've had a crash course over the past year or so. Be careful on the internet especially. I may be real life wise, but I was quite naive when it came to the web. Not anymore.
Take care,
OPL
Hiya Cutie!
Ya know, every one of your comments make me smile, so wide. That says something about you, don't ya think?? ;p
I'm glad you like my weird posts. Hardly any of it is my own words, however! And well, clearly I have a hero complex..O.K. just obsession. ;p The first bit was an indian prayer I found. The second bit was from a free zainy little mag that our local junior college students put out (sometimes you can't make out any of the words! How arty! ;p) And the last bit, well, who doesn't love Batman, right? I prefer Michael Keaton honestly, but Bale is pretty cute (save for that whole throaty voice he was pulling in the second flick. What was up with that? Jesus.) And I think Ledger (Oh,I just loved him.) was one of the most amazing villains I have ever seen! Too damn intense. So fuckin sad.
I was going to put up a new post in bit here, it's from a movie I saw when I was about 9 I think? 'Pump Up The Volume.' Came out in '90?(It's an American flick.) Christian Slater is the lead (hero!). You have to try and rent it sometime if you like what I post of it. It's all about young people finding their voices and straight up -USING THEM! Finding and trying to face yourself, the world. I can watch that one again and again and again. There's some nudity, and some really dirty humor (oh boy!), but the real meaning behind it is never to feel you can't stand up for yourself. A most awesome (and needed) message. It's pretty intense actually. And well, he was a damn fine fella back then, ya know! ;p Oh, and since I'm bombarding ya Britt, if you venture to rent that one, you should totally find 'The Legend Of Billie Jean' too. Oddly enough, Christian Slater is in that one too! His sis is the lead (heroine!). Basically the same concept, but a little more action. Well, kinda. ;p Just really wicked movies if you're lookin to find some inspiration for yourself. Let me just say, growing up (and hell, even today) these two movies, were my best friends. Gives you a little push and desire to know who you are, and just embrace that, what you believe in, what you want, all of it. I don't think enough people feel they can do that for themselves.
I have to agree with L and say, it is rough, no matter what age you are. And things are always going to be uncertain. But Britt, so far from our little interactions, you seem to be doing alright cutie. You seem to have a good sense of yourself and that is not only awesome, but the best weapon you can have, when walking out into the world. Even though things didn't seem to go so hot at Tafe, at least you had the courage to try there. And you had even more courage to say "I don't want to be here." It's hard to admit to that feeling sometimes. Almost like you are letting people down, and you feel you aren't capable. And if you truly felt you didn't want to be there, it's better that you said it, straight. But I want you to know too Britt, that I don't think you should let the way other people treat you, take you away from something you want.
I know it is hard just getting through it all day to day in school(I so very much hated it! Still kinda do actually!), and adding to that being surrounded by people you feel don't want you to succeed, well that just sucks That Much More. But sometimes having to stay in a crappy situation -and having to face all the challenges of such uninviting (sometimes just straight up monstrous) people -sometimes it makes fighting through all of that, getting your work done, trying to do well, no matter how it all turns out -sometimes it feels better in the end.
It doesn't matter if it doesn't go the way you wanted it too, it's the fact that you tried, you just tried, to face the ugly in front of you, sometimes no matter what, it just feels better that you gave it a chance. Ya know what I mean? I don't mean to offend you Britt, I just wanted you to know, a lot of us (if not ALL!) have been in your position. Hell, we still feel that way sometimes. And I have little doubt that will won't again. It's part of life, unfortunately. I just don't want you to not fight for something you want because it is safer (even for your heart, loves) not too. I just don't want you to give up on some things. Things that you feel are important, things you want, you need. I just want you to give your effort a chance to really turn out into something wonderful for you. You never know how something will go until you really give it your all.
I do hope the school situation is going better. School unto itself is just a lot of fuckin effort. And some people only like to make it harder for others. (That goes for life outside of school too, unfortunately.) But I know, sooner or later, you will encounter someone close, who only wants the best for you, and will do what they can to help you get that. I hope you know, of the friends you have made here, we do believe in you and only want great things for you Britt.
You know you can always drop a note (email too!) if you ever want to chat. I'm real terrible at getting back to people (especially people I care about!), but I am always thinking of you lot. ;p So feel free, Britt. I hope things are better. Hope to hear from ya soon! Loves, dez/lew <33
P.s. I just LOVE your blog tittle! And you're words are something beautiful too. I always enjoy reading them. ;) Talk with ya Britt<33
Hiya Britt!
I'm so sorry I took so long in getting back to ya loves! I didn't mean to keep you hanging! I am sorry you were having a rough time, last you popped by my blog. I hope that has improved some for ya? I know you were upset about the whole Tafe thing, but really the most important thing is that you be honest with yourself, how you feel. If you truly felt that wasn't the place for you, then you did the very best thing -and said so. And like you said, things are right with your buddies there. It is something so important to have friends that understand you. So important Britt. And even if things do turn sour, with anyone, you have to know that if you are being true to yourself, and if people are meant to accept you, embrace you for who you are and what you want, feel, then -They will.
And too, some people are just shits. And you shouldn't count on them, or take their shitheadiness too much to heart. They are not Everyone, in the world. ;p But I am sure ya know that! I just wanted to say it!
I hope school is going a little better for you. But I have to say loves, I do think it is all just a test of character. High school, I mean. If you can make it through that mess of emotion and betrayal and heartbreak and changes and homework and homework and even more fuckin homework (;p) and everything in your face all at once -still knowing who you are, and forever being true to yourself, (Don't ever be ashamed of who you are Britt), still pulling through the homework, graduating -then you have passed The TEST. ;p
Mind you, that is a hell of feat, that many years test. And I didn't pass it so well myself. But I honestly didn't try so hard. And that doesn't leave you, not trying to do the best you could have. It's made my life rather difficult to be totally honest Britt. I don't want anyone to miss out on the opportunity to test themselves, to gain knowledge that may not seem important now, (but trust me, it will be important eventually) and pass that fucked up rough (and actually worth it) test. Ya know? Especially people I care about and believe will manage just fine, loves. ;p
Drop me a note, when ya can. I really do hope things are going better for ya Britt. I know you deserve better. You hang in there. -And remember, just keep going, make it through. It's worth it, I promise you. ;p Love to ya cutie! <33 des/lew
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